There is a difference between pushing something away and letting something go.

Pushing something away may provide a temporary relief from discomfort, but that energy doesn’t go away. Instead, it gets pushed unto the subtle layers of your subconscious or even the physical layers of your body. Pushing something away doesn’t leave space for processing or healing. Energy comes into your field like a magnet. Running from a magnet allows it to keep following you. Similarly, pushing a magnet away is just inviting it to come back, and with force. Avoiding it... well that does absolutely nothing.

Letting something go happens when you are ready. It happens when you create the space for processing, acknowledging, seeing, and healing. It happens when you realize something no longer serves or has run its course. It happens when you sit with the discomfort, as a teacher, and allow it to move through you without trying to run, change, or push it away. Discomfort can be a great teacher. Discomfort can be a powerful motivator. Discomfort can be love.

What happens when we look at the very thing that makes us uncomfortable and thank it for showing up to teach us and/or invite meaningful change?

It opens the doorway to transformation.

A jolt of awareness awakens Shiva from his cosmic throne,
Surges of lightening, a glimpse of union
Arising from the temple Maya.
When the sensations fade, he seeks outwardly,
Grasping for any experience that brings him closer to his beloved.
A taste of nectar,
The forbidden fruit.
Shielded by the tapestries of human experience,
Until he remembers the light within.

The serpent Shakti awakens to the creative internal force,
Singing her song for her beloved to hear.
How long have I allowed myself to be seduced by the glimmer of Maya?
How long have I sought comfort in my own illusions,
By the light of Venus rising,
Waiting to be validated by a web of my creation?

As Shiva turns his expansive gaze within,
Shakti feels herself begin to uncoil.
Time’s wounds untangling from the web, often painful to witness.
She ascends, he descends.
And a new web begins to form,
Connecting the temple within to the universe without.
They dance, they retract.
They experience divinity, then find the familiar.
They know, yet they are blind.
They are love, yet can only desire what they know of the self,
An experience unfolding with every breath and act of devotion.
An experience that could take many incarnations across dimensions of time.

It began from one thread of creation, a spark, a flash,
And weaved into a complex and ecstatic dance of polarities.
The spark that was one, became two,
Only to become one again.
A journey of experience, involution to evolution,
Illusion to awakening,
Duality to union,
Divine inspiration.

“A man following the pravritti (outward) path looks away from the bindu towards the outside world. He is almost entirely motivated by external events. The other path, the nivritti (reversed) path, is the spiritual path, the path of wisdom. On this path the individual begins to face the bindu, turning in toward the source of his being. This path leads to freedom. The path of evolution is the pravritti path of manifestation and extroversion. The path of involution leads back along the path that produced your individual being. The purpose of yoga practice is to help direct your awareness along the involutionary path.” — Swami Satyananda Saraswati

Today (12/2/19) the expansive planet Jupiter moves into the sign of Capricorn. Jupiter transits last for about a year, and I personally love the idea of Jupiter hanging out in Cap for a while. This happens to be my natal Jupiter placement (the only significant earth I have in my chart), and if you were born in 1936, 1948, 1960, 1972, 1984, 1996, or 2007, then you most likely have this placement also.

Pluto and Saturn have been hanging out in Capricorn for quite a while, highlighting areas of responsibility and power struggles — so Jupiter making his fiery and combustible entrance feels like much-needed energy in these heavy times. The reason I love Jupiter in Capricorn is because it helps us do the work, stay focused, and devote to a higher purpose. It can provide sustained success and achievement in just about anything, as long as it’s aligned with your true essence. Jupiter in Capricorn natives generally have a strong sense of self and aren’t easily swayed off course.

I wouldn’t normally associate the fiery King of Wands with Capricorn, but he is Jupiter’s entrance — the potent combination of fire and earth — driven, purposeful, successful, and a master of creative expression. I’m happy he jumped out of my deck this morning so that we can reflect on and embody his energy.

What are you hoping to master in 2020?

Freedom may be my passion
and changing my mind is easy.
But my heart,
my heart
seeks only devotion.

Devotion
is what fuels my desire,
the willingness to stand in stability,
to prioritize Love over all.

Devotion
is what keeps me up at night with longing.
I will forever follow its call,
like moth to flame,
ready to be consumed.

(Except I am the wind created by wings
dissolving into a gust of breeze.)

When devotion is present,
when dedication and commitment are the offering,
it’s all I can see.

When Love is the promise,
it’s all I can feel.
Everything else is just a game.

You have to be willing to offer everything you have
to receive everything you want.
Hands out, heart open,
focused only on that which is Love.

Imagine how profound the subtle can feel without distraction, numbing, substances, or escapism. Something as simple as a sip of mountain air or the aura of a ray of sun can take your breath away.

Imagine the possibilities — the messages and insights available to you — when the mind is open, aware, attuned, and free to communicate with the heart.

How magical, this simple experience of a sunset, the senses alive and awakened, heart full, the channel clear and open to experience every second of beauty.

This is life expressing itself through your awareness.

You don’t have to eat, dress, or act a certain way to be “spiritual.”

You don’t have to know everything about meditation to experience a meditative mind.

You don’t have to do handstands or arm balances to experience the transformational mind/body effects of yoga.

You don’t have to take hundreds of pictures of yourself in yoga poses to be considered a yogi.

You don’t have to go to big yoga festivals to find enlightenment — especially if you’re an internal seeker.

You don’t need a guru to tell you how to connect with Source energy.

You don’t need to collect trainings, certificates, or approval to channel the magic that flows freely through you.

Teachers and teachings are wonderful tools on the path, but you get to decide whether they resonate with you.

No one can tell you or dictate whether your energy is pure or worthy. Your energy is your energy... and it’s beautiful.

No matter where you are on the journey, you are in the right place for your unique path.

No one owns or has the right to manage or suppress any part or practice of the spiritual path. Any attempts to shame people into boxes, rules, or limitations are tools of the Matrix to separate you from your own divinity.

Remember, rules are a man-made construct.

If you want to experience something divine, enlightening, and beautifully transcendent, start by connecting with YOU, exactly as you are, without the stories, masks, expectations, rules, or programming. You are already a beautiful and divine being in its purest form, and however you choose to express your divinity is perfect.

As I write this, Mars is in the last degree of Libra, getting ready to ingress into Scorpio where it will be until early January. Now, I love Libra, but Mars has been in its detriment here. Libra is all about the other, and the warrior planet doesn’t always know how to play nice in Libra without sacrificing self-care. The energy becomes unfocused and quickly burns out.

Scorpio, however, has no problem focusing on the self. And Mars is at home here: determined, passionate, intense, and not willing to unnecessarily compromise. This transit will help you see all of the obstacles that have been standing in the way of your personal power and self-worth.

Some things simply aren’t worth your time and energy. And sometimes the greatest act of self-love is knowing when something isn’t serving you and letting it go. Mars in Scorpio gives you the energy to walk away. And by doing so, you can transform unaligned circumstances into aligned embodiment.

Look deep into the energetic eyes of any karmic entanglement keeping you in the dark, and release your responsibility to keep this weight in your life.

The mind likes to invent all kinds of problems and obstacles that keep us repeating the same addictive thought loops. Are your thoughts keeping you paralyzed in fear or angst? Have you allowed the mind to distract you from the truly important work? Are you letting negative thoughts hold you back from change or growth? Do you keep dwelling on the same issue incessantly until it’s difficult to think of anything else?

Sit and watch the mind for a moment. Where do these thoughts originate? What are the physical and emotional responses they generate? What are they asking you to witness? What are they allowing you to avoid? Follow the trail and see where it leads. The destination may surprise you.

Thoughts may be just thoughts, but they still ask to be witnessed. Burying them, distracting yourself, or allowing them to dissipate in the moment might feel like the right solution, but the energy doesn’t simply go away. It can eventually manifest into another form of energy such as an emotion or physical symptom. Or the thoughts will get louder until they feel seen.

So if something is distracting you or weighing heavily on the mind, watch it instead of trying to push through. Witness with love and compassion the ways in which your mind is trying to keep you safe. And if you find that a thought pattern isn’t serving you, see it, feel it, and say: Thank you for coming into my awareness, but I am no longer in alignment with this energy. I release you into the light to be transmuted for my highest good and for the highest good of all.

And remember, you are more powerful than the mind. ❤️

The ego wants it all.
Validation.
Approval.
Sacrifice.
Suffering as proof of worthiness.
But the heart knows,
Love doesn’t ask for these things.
Underneath it all,
This human suit we wear,
The choices we make,
And the responsibilities we carry,
The energy of Love is eternal.
It already exists without asking,
Without changing anything.
And there it will remain,
From searching to recognition,
Separation to union,
Awareness to devotion,
And the infinite space.
There we are.

Life isn’t always a straight line.
Nothing is black and white,
This or that,
Right or wrong,
Choose or be chosen.
We will never know how many galaxies there are,
Because it’s infinite.
And so are our choices,
Our opportunities...
We are living them all at once.
And so you can wait for the straight line,
The one thing,
The right decision,
The steady direction,
The ultimate purpose...
It’s a powerful way to serve.
But some of us can never be the one thing.
Choices and opportunities are ever present.
Energy is in constant flow.
Soul connections around every corner.
Sometimes dharma is a gift, not a line.
Some of us are here to plant many seeds,
To be the air and carry them in multiple directions.
To expand,
Create possibilities,
New ideas,
And light the flame of inspiration.
Don’t worry if it feels like you’re always searching,
Because that might be how you serve.
You can wait...
Or you can walk away.
You don’t have to follow an ultimatum.
You can let go as easily as you daydream.
And change your mind at any point,
Before you become stuck.
Before you surrender your power.
Before you choose duty...
Over love.
But don’t wait for it.
BE it.
And let it flow.