“The whole of the Island of Apples is related to the Station of Integration in the Avalonian Cycle of Healing. Stepping through the portal of this Station, we allow ourselves to experience the truth of our innate beauty, perfection, and oneness... see yourself as the whole and sacred being that you are, blessing your shadow for the gifts it brings while owning your priestess self and all the ways you have already reclaimed her. Accept that where you are on your journey is exactly where you need to be, without judgment or expectation. Never forget that you are already whole...already One...already a cherished and vital part of the body of the Mother. You need only to release and remember.” - Jhenah Telyndru

Scorpio uncovers the true identity beneath the mask. It navigates the deepest and heaviest waters. This intensity certainly doesn’t make Scorpio season easy, but it is through this transformational power that we discover the truth.

We tend to associate change with heaviness. Either we aim to release the burdens we carry or we feel that transformation comes with burdens. But what if the burdens are simply a blindfold keeping us hidden in a false identity or sense of safety? By keeping our eyes closed to the truth of who we are, we create the heaviness that keeps us stuck. Change (death/rebirth) doesn’t have to mean drastic reconfiguration or sacrifice. All we need to do is release the false stories and open our eyes. Show our real face to the world.

I tend to make big decisions during Scorpio season, but not necessarily because of a redirect. This fixed, powerful, and highly psychic energy simply doesn’t leave space for complacency. We may not want to see the truth, but it’s there just the same. Staying blind to it only increases the intensity and heaviness.

The season starts off with a new moon in Scorpio on Sunday, opposite Uranus. This is a highly unpredictable and impulsive configuration that may just rip the blindfold right off. But it doesn’t need to if we choose to do the work ourselves. I’m not going to lie, I’m a little bit nervous about traveling on this day because of the shock nature of the transit, but I have faith in my decisions aligning with the highest good. And spending Scorpio season and Samhain in magical Britain is absolutely following the call of my heart. ❤️

Are you ready to explore your truth?

There are no rules to life. There are no structures or institutions more powerful than your own divinity. Only fear prevents us from believing that we can be happy and have everything we need. This fear is designed by the very systems prospering from our believed lack of worth. Don’t let them convince you that freedom leads to suffering. Freedom leads to awakening.

Call yourself out on your own beliefs. You don’t need to stay trapped in a routine that is killing your joy. You don’t need to appease the people that are causing you to suffer in doubt. You don’t need to follow man-made rules to connect to spirituality. You don’t need to feel shame by being yourself. You don’t need to align with anything that boxes you in or creates division.

You can create your own path and be successful. You can walk away from your conditioning and programmed belief systems. You can align with your gifts and authenticity and manifest everything you need. Step confidently into your worth and feel your own power. Create your own reality. Don’t worry about what the matrix is doing, or the next strategy of divide and shame. Align with love and join the great awakening. 🙌🏻

Every breath signals a beginning and an end.
Every song and spoken word creates universes.
Every decision reverberates through dimensions of time.
Every time you open your eyes, you create a new story.
It’s all so simple, yet expansive beyond your wildest dreams.
It’s all so unknown, yet you are the creator.
Of time, of life, of love,
The far-reaching galaxies of your imagination.
The answers you seek are the questions you create.
You are intelligent design.

Autumn sings her hymns of letting go.
Let it go, the leaves whisper
as they transform and release
effortlessly into the ground.
Let it go, shout the voices from my past.
Let it go, begs my karmic path.

And there were times when I let go,
instead of speaking for my truth.
There were times letting go trapped
me in a cycle of complacency.
Rather than fight for what I wanted
or how I felt,
I let it go.
When I asserted boundaries and they
backfired, I surrendered.
I let go of my ego.
I let go of my voice.
I let go of my worth.

And now I know that harmony
doesn’t mean surrender.
It doesn’t mean settling, enduring.
It doesn’t compromise or accept
duty over love.
I know that wanting something happens
for a reason. To teach me
that I’m worthy enough to receive it.
And when doubt stands in the way,
tries to convince me that I’m better off,
or that I should give up,
I let doubt go.

The Tantric tradition acknowledges the experiences and pleasures of life as a path to enlightenment. The senses provide keys to the ultimate realization of pleasure and purpose. Being here, being present, and experiencing wonder open the deeper channels to ecstasy and bliss.

The body is a universe in itself, and the movement and vibration of our personal energetic currents determine how we show up and connect. With intention and understanding, the subtle becomes deeply profound and purposeful — showing up in our relationships, offerings, and through every interaction and encounter.

Every breath, every moment contains an ecstatic dance of beauty, pleasure, and transformation. The practice allows us to tap into this power of being. And once you’re there, you’ll never look back. 🧡🍁

Happy Equinox, Mabon, and first day of Libra season! I love this time of the year (almost) as much as the Summer Solstice window. On the surface, there is much to be appreciated. Beautiful fall colors, plenty of food to be harvested, idyllic temperatures, and the excitement of upcoming holidays. Yet underneath that beauty and bounty there is deep transformative energy. Nature begins her retreat, displaying all that she worked hard to produce. And energetically, we also prepare for hibernation, honoring what we’ve accomplished and letting go of the things that didn’t fit.

The other night as I was falling asleep, I suddenly shot out of bed to write the following words:

“The things you desire are as beautiful and perilous as autumn leaves.

“Look away and all that you love becomes vibrant without you.

“The last of your opportunities fading with the waning sun.”

I will write a longer post about the meaning behind those words eventually, but the big message is *don’t look away.* If there’s something you want, make it a priority before the opportunity passes. It can be so easy to find distractions and excuses, but life is short and we have no idea how long we have. It’s like autumn in New England. It may last three months, it may last three days. But however long it lasts, beauty is there if we open our eyes and hearts to see it. The balance of Libra isn’t about compromising to accommodate the status quo. It’s about learning how to create harmony with all of the things we love and desire — a magical dance of temperance and pleasure. A Tantric dance, if you will. 😉

Because why else are we here, if not to have these transformational experiences of life?

Go for it.

Resting in the silence,
attention pulled by memories.
Emotions follow energy,
energy attached to words.
The silence becomes a story.
The story becomes a memory.
Until I can’t tell one from the other.
Maybe there are some lessons
I’m not supposed to master.
Never knowing if it’s ego, desire,
conditioning, fate, or karma
that keeps me from the course.
So can I resist the pull,
or let it teach me?
We can’t really regret
unless we try.
And we can’t know ecstasy
until we let go.

I’ve tried the routine thing. It’s a natural human behavior. Oh, I like this... this worked in my schedule... this gave me good results — therefore I should make it a routine. Wake up at the same time, eat the same breakfast, drive the same route, practice the same daily behaviors, eat dinner at the same time, zone out before bed. Sometimes I can flow with some semblance of structure, but my spirit is saying 😱🤬🤯😩🤪

Other times (okay a lot of the time) I like to hack the matrix and do something completely different, reprogramming my brain to embrace (rather than fear) change. (That and it’s just more enjoyable.) Dance party first thing in the morning, reaching out to someone I haven’t talked to in five years, a cold shower, creating mandalas in nature, wearing a dress to clean the house, eating takeout at a mountaintop by sunset, creating a blanket fort, buying plane tickets with no plans, stargazing on the lawn pretending to study planets when I’m really looking for satellites and UFOs. 🔭 🛸 👽

If there weren’t people willing to live outside of the box, resist the norm, and question assumptions, then nothing would ever change. Let’s rewrite the norm so that living in the moment and prioritizing freedom becomes encouraged rather than ostracized. Let’s tear down the power structures that program fear and division by turning off and tuning out the voices until they no longer exist. Start to question and break down every assumption until the only right action is the one that makes you happy and maximizes your potential. Don’t be afraid to pave your own way and break the rules. —>> Make decisions out of love instead of fear.

See you on the other side. 😉

We always ask,
What do you want?
What’s stopping you?
But the real question is,
Can you handle what you want?
Are you willing to invite change,
or are you satisfied with wanting?
Does longing make life less boring?
Do you want things to feel out of reach?
Does it fuel your day?
Have the daydreams become addictive?
Do you wait for the “hit” of possibility
to get your cortisol rush?
What have you boxed inside
under the guise of obligation?
What have you pushed away,
gambling with the possibility
that it may never come back?
The hardest questions are those
that get to the truth.
So can you handle what you want?
Can your nervous system accept joy?
Can your heart accept love?
Can your mind accept change?
Can your ego accept the possibility
that maybe everything you’ve ever wanted
has been in front of you all along?

As you’re upgrading, you’ll encounter many tests. These tests are designed to assess your readiness for the next level and create space to receive new growth and possibilities. Some of these end up being fairly obvious: the same empty promises or hollow words you’ve heard a million times, the bad habit that isn’t serving your highest good, the reappearing business deal you’ve already turned down, a past relationship resurfacing with someone who still isn’t ready, the same triggers that once made you upset but now you see them coming. Most aware and awakened people are able to move through these tests with understanding and grace, knowing when things simply aren’t meant to be.

But sometimes we have situations that occupy so much space and energy, that the simple notion of letting go feels agonizing — even if we know it needs to happen. We hang on, bury the emotions, try to make it fit, distract, hide, repress, run away, make excuses... SO MANY of us are going through this right now. We’re being asked to step up, step out — and in our hearts we know what’s holding us back, but it feels too difficult or painful. I see you.

Letting go of things doesn’t necessarily mean they’re gone forever (although sometimes it does). But it may mean that it just doesn’t fit right now. It may mean that some person/belief/emotion/etc. is holding you back from your truest embodied self. Perhaps when you step into that higher vibration, the thing that once was an obstacle becomes more aligned. Maybe it becomes a distant memory. You never know unless you try.

And it won’t necessarily be easy. The big things become big voids, and those voids need time and space to heal. They need love and attention. They need to be filled with new, light-filled experiences and higher vibrations. They need to be grieved. But through that devotion to your elevation, your light, your dharma, your true self, your embodiment, your empowerment — you’ll discover more magic than you could ever imagine. If you’re in this experience of upgrading, then you’re ready for it. Most likely, you’ve asked for the next level. So step into your light codes. I can’t wait to see you shine. 🙏🏻