I don’t think the rain ever touched us.
Maybe it was soaked in our hair, droplets sliding off our coats.
There were always rainbows, waterfalls, Iceland weather on summer walks.

I remember it rained,
But I don’t remember the rain itself.
Instead I hear the sound of laughter,
Smiles I can’t contain,
Words I can’t speak,
Rushing rivers,
My heartbeat.

How can I not run outside,
Searching for rainbows?

Nothing stays the same forever. Perhaps things/people/situations in your life once worked because you were operating at a certain vibration, and now they no longer resonate. This is all a part of the growth process. You can try to hang on, attach and remain dormant — or release and let yourself blossom.

If things are falling away, it may be time to make space for something new to develop. Something that aligns with who you’re becoming and where you’re evolving. Something that resonates from your authentic code, a vibrational signature that is uniquely you.

You can’t get there by making the old ways work, by hanging on to things that have run their course, or by reaching to something external — essentially allowing you to run from yourself.

No, you get there by committing to your gifts, your energy, your evolvement. By realizing that the universe/god/guru was always within you all along. It has been waiting for you to stop running. To stop distracting. To stop chasing what isn’t you.

And when the mask comes off, it will be hard to be in frequency with energies of the past, with other masks. We attract what we create. Allow it all to change and shift if it must, and trust that it’s for your highest good, because it is. You’re awakening to the real you. And the real you is everything you have ever dreamed and imagined.

Fear isn’t a sustainable fuel. It will run your engine temporarily until it breaks down from overwhelm. It will offer sensations of feeling alive until you realize how limited the fear-based lifeblood actually is.

The neutral mind won’t provide the same addictive heart-pumping, rapid-breathing adrenaline, but it will awaken your senses to what is, actually, in front of you — neither overly positive or negative — but what IS. The neutral mind is freedom, and with the capacity to witness the subtlety of life, in all its beauty and felt experience, this freedom and awakening will be the lifeblood that transforms your experience of being alive.

To actually taste and experience aliveness, pleasure, and freedom, allow yourself to step away from fear-as-fuel. You have the ability to choose what you feed. Give your body and mind the space to adapt and heal and regulate. Trust in the process of life. New information won’t change your perception; you already know what’s true and real. In the neutral space, you’re able to manage your own perceptions.

You are awaiting your presence.

The air, she is
a fickle sprite.

Forever moving, shifting, embracing
her own unfolding story.

Unable to be swayed, grasped, guided
by other than her own song.

Her love will engulf you, wholly.
But her invitations will disappear as
quickly as they came.

Unattached. Free.
She slips away unseen.

Wisps passing over moonlight.
Vibrating leaves.
The flutter of butterfly wings.
Dancing reeds.

Follow her whispers
before they fade among the trees.

Peace comes from within. There is nothing you can see, feel, hear, or read externally that will provide peace for you. You have to be willing to walk away from the addictive nature of fear and everything that validates fear over peace.

Fear wants to reach for something else. Fear believes that you lack what you need. Fear wants to build in strength through anger and pain. But there is no lack. Lack is not a construct that exists in the realm of divinity. Your true nature is limitless, free, and complete.

Where does your heart lead when you go within? The internal seeker chooses the wisdom of the heart and is guided by true enlightenment. We have a choice between forever seeking the answers externally or realizing the answers within.

There are no more gurus now to turn to — except for yourself. This is the next stage of development, of evolution, of ascension. Release the old ways. You have all of the knowledge you seek. Everything is unfolding now in perfect awakening.

The guru calling for your energy doesn’t sit on your altar; it is your own soul who speaks. It is you, writing the path of wisdom from the infinite source within. Your voice won’t awaken from chanting someone else’s song, because spirit wrote you the most beautiful orchestra within your heart.

Seekers of Love, look no further than your own incarnation. The union you seek is guiding you back to the flame within. It will never reject you. It will light fires so bright that you will get chills up your spine. It will guide you back to remembering the initial spark, the evolutionary path of inspiration and awakening.

There is no right or wrong path, but there is your immense, intelligent potential. Your gifts have the ability to carve a new path, never seen or traveled before. Don’t be afraid of your abilities. Don’t be swayed by the easy path, the predictable way, the simple love — choose the path of eternal Love. Choose to gift your devotion to the work of your dharma. Bringing love back within shows the universe that you’re ready to commit to the work you came here to do.

Shallow waters are safer, yes. But did you come here for safe? Or did you come here to experience the terrifying depths of limitless, infinite potential? A flame can only warm shallow waters to a tepid, comfortable temperature — the cosmic kiddie pool. But fish who swim in the dark, unseen depths evolve to create their own light. Surrender to the current and you will light a flame bright enough to create galaxies.

The years pass by like days now,
yet we’re still waiting for the thaw.
This is the last time,
I’ve told myself a thousand times.
but then the ice begins to melt,
and hope arises, or some
glimpse of karmic memory.
An unbreakable cord connecting
this life with the last,
and then a thousand more.

We imagine the what ifs, the untold life
with different puzzle pieces.
Not necessarily better,
but connected, infused
with fantasy and dreams
played out in familiar realms.

We’re getting older now,
and yet more beautiful.
Distant yet deeply connected
by memories. By love.
By hidden truths and emotions
laced in poetic metaphor.
Through our many disciplined choices,
responsibilities, disappointment,
and a thousand promises,
I remember it all.

Notice the energy you’re accepting and cultivating. Remember, the mind loves fear. Fear allows the mind to take complete control over our emotions and biology. The physical sensations and biochemical reactions become addictive. The more entrenched we allow the mind to get, the more the mind seeks to validate the fear through additional stimulation. It can be so easy to go down a rabbit hole when fear takes over. It’s very similar to filtering information to validate an existing belief, except in the case of fear, the information is sought out to create these addictive sensations — the next adrenaline rush.

So without necessarily changing anything (whether you do is completely up to you), just observe what you watch and read. Notice if it feels true and validating or if it’s creating a rush of fear and anxiety. I was listening to something yesterday that definitely elevated my nervous system and suddenly I was imagining myself with symptoms I never had. I had to step back, turn it off, and laugh at myself. The mind is a tricky beast.

Be aware of any language or commentary that makes you feel a sense of shame, or makes you feel like you’re a contagion instead of a human. This type of language is designed to lower your vibration and keep you in a fear state. If anything, we can use this time to develop deeper (even if physically distant) connections with loved ones and remind people how much we care. It’s impossible to know the future, we can’t predict how life will pan out, and change is the only constant — so it’s always the right time to express love.

If you feel yourself spiraling, take a deep breath and remind yourself that you are safe. There are many experts and perspectives out there and it’s impossible to know what’s true. But at your core innermost center, you are experiencing complete peace and bliss. Tune into that space deep within and give yourself permission to feel good. To feel safe. Listen to your intuition and trust your own inner knowing above all else.

I love you. Be well. ❤️

Aries. Cardinal fire.

And then there was light. The first spark. The beginning of the astrological wheel. The flame of awakening begins in the direction of East in the realm of air — because fire cannot exist without air. This is the first blaze of manifestation when an idea becomes purpose, when planning becomes action, when birth becomes dharma.

It is because of this divine spark that we are all here. The torch-bearers have arrived to lead and guide us in the direction of our power and gifts. This is the warrior flame we seek when the questions and possibilities become muddied and unclear. The fearless flame acts first, questions later. Without this guiding light, we would all be simmering in a cold soup of unrealized potential.

Look to the East where the sun rises at the Equinox point, the place where the light enters, the first breath, the guiding flame. The Aries spark won’t wait for you to decide, so it’s up to you whether you will follow. New opportunities and possibilities are upon us.

Some people will be afraid of your strength.
Be strong anyways.

Some will dislike your boundaries.
Protect yourself anyways.

Those close to you may lash out when they can’t control you.
Stay in your sovereignty. Find a new tribe.

Some may laugh or roll their eyes at your ideas.
Let them. And then keep seeking, keep learning.

Many won’t understand your freedom, your wild nature.
That’s okay, because your reality is awesome.

Some may prefer you when you’re weak or needy.
But you are here to choose to be empowered and radiant.

The ones who try to pull you down from your power and light are testing your strength. They want you back in the shadows where they can see you and hold power over you.

But you’ve worked this hard.
You’ve come this far.
You’ve healed yourself in ways you never thought possible.
And there’s no going back.
Because it only gets better.
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Key words: love, surrender, polarity, oppositions, inner guidance, choice

Every moment in time contains multiple crossroads, many opportunities to choose. Does the direction you choose flow with the current of energy you want to manifest — the reality you want to create? Or is it being influenced by something outside of yourself?

The thoughts and vibrations we continually project create the energy and vibration of the planet. A blanket of fear won’t keep you warm and safe in difficult times. And you get to choose whether you want this reality to be difficult at all. In this structure of time and polarity, the opposite manifestation is always available. It already exists. And you are the one who chooses.

When you make choices for yourself, are they offering love? Are the things you put in your body demonstrating love? Are the words and thoughts you speak to yourself and others resonating love? Are the people you spend time with showing you love? Are your boundaries loving to yourself? Does your environment contain love?

Love isn’t a show of force, manipulation, or fear. It is the opposite manifestation of fear. Love is surrender and softness. It is allowing. It is choosing to honor yourself first as a vessel of love to blanket the planet with love. You are the universe creating this reality. You are the one who chooses.

Trust yourself, trust the process. 🌕